Missing you

A year in review:

The beggining of this year started with intense piano practicing because of the stupid high school musical.

Oh and then there was drama amoungst the Lions of my school... I got caught up in it...

Then for 3 months it was lovely... sometimes on and off but It was lovely...

Then Sadness overtook me... for 3 weeks.. The only counseling came through Piano and music

Summer arrived with intense happiness.

I rode my bike and explored my surroundings and became myself to the full extant that I needed.

Then there was partying... I learned how to party, Yes before 2009 I didn't really know how to party... ugh I know.. what a baby I am.

Jealousy... I experienced it in the summer... and You know what I SHOULDN'T HAVE BEEN JEALOUS!!! Because I am having an absolutely lovely time right now. (hearts)

Then I went to Special Outing at my university... Oh and It made everything wonderful.. I realized that there are other places for me to go and other people I will meet.

Then school... college started. It was nice and I was in my own. Schoolwork... parties... new friends... and then Drama Struck AGAIN!

Drama... drama... drama... And then It ended because I MADE IT STOP. I did it! With a little help from my friends... lol

I miss you my best friend. She left me and it was the first time that I cried because a friend had left me... she has been gone for 2 months and I hear from her sometimes but it was very difficult. I lost a few friends at that point and then things became absolutely beautiful.

Oh... and then I became friends with the most lovely ladies on the planet. The Pants fit so well when I'm with them.

Then something funny happened and I got very Distracted. I like Distractions very much.

But then sooner than I expected, my friends and distractions had to leave me... or I had to leave them because of the holiday season.

And that is the year in Review.

Happy New Year.

Tik Tok Viti Baby

Here with my cousin's daughter
Viti is a vision of beauty
Her chocolate skin mixed with rosy cheeks
Her curled dark hair curves around her face like a holiday wreath
She is sad whenever I leave
She views the world with Large dark eyes that are highlighted with curling eyelashes
She kisses you because you are her hero
She wants to be there all the time because you are so wonderful
Her clothes are cute and funny and she loves dresses
Princess Viti got scared during the movie
But she came back because she wanted to finish it because she is a big girl
You say, I like you Viti
She says, I like you too
She says... How do you spell [fill in your name]
Oh!
She's got it.

Miss you like a christmas tree

Hi my friends
I miss you an ultimate amount
Like cows and milk and ice cream... sorry Creamed Ice
I sit in my house, all alone because my family has left me
I sit here watching the View and watch the snow fall outside my window
Exams are over and I've gotten my grades
I passed!!! Aaaaah how exciting
I wait for next semester because I want to see all of you
But Ugh I don't want to go to
Class
Yuck
Throwup... ahahaha...
Have a Happy Christmas because its a wonderful time for all of you!!!
Love everyone around you... I'm trying to love people that I hate... oh even if its very difficult
Kisses and Hugs to You who I miss so much

And now for Bio Girl....

Thank you anthropologie.com for these amazing clothes!

Crunk it like its hot!!...!

Thank you anthropologie.com for these awesome finds!

Fleece Lining Baby... here you go!!!!

Thank you anthropologie.com for these wonderful clothes...!

Final Week of Preparing Yourself For The Finals Week

Flags and notes along with people with books
Cribs and babies along with staples and papers
This week is the dreaded week
Where partying will totally screw you over
But there is light at the end of that Tunnel
The Tunnel of Love
Chemistry
Biology
Calculating those numbers
Paper with grids, lines, and diagrams
Carbon copies
Hydrogen fuel cells
Haploid stages
Its all a blur for most of this time and yet, it becomes clear in this final Week
Week of finals
Final weeks
Done

Hmm.... Clothes for my friends.... here you are darling boxers under pants

Thank you anthropologie.com for these awesome clothing items...!

Do you understand the feeling of shame?

There once was a flower with lots of petals
Growing up it felt that its petals were too much
Everyone asked if the flower would shed its petals but it was too attached
People kept saying, pull them off!
You
Can
Have
Less!
The Flower said that everyone should deal with the fact that it will have lots of petals.
Don't hate the petals the flower says
The color and the number should not affect you
How many petals does a flower have to have to be accepted
What is Normal?
Normal is the feeling you get when everything is simple and taken care of
Normal is the love that you should have for your petals
Normal is a kiss
Normal is sticking to yourself
Normal is a bowl of ice cream
Bowl
Of
Creamed
Ice

Catastrophic Collapse

Have you ever been in the middle of a pit of lions?
Lions are scary... they want whats in the middle and they will fight for it.
To
The
Death
What are the fighting for?
A piece of meat
That meat comes and goes, yet they still want it.
Why do they want it?
Its not good.
It may hurt them
What if it is diseased?
Kill that feeling!
Kill it!
That disturbance that you surround is just going to turn you against eachother.
Stop
In
Your
Tracks
Stop it!
It's a Catastrophic Collapse

I broke my hair clip

How do you fix a hairclip???
Its beautiful and makes you hair- y so yeah
beat that Youuuuu
How do you fix it?
In The City??
Do you need a special place for that??
Do you need to have tattooos when you fix it?
Its destroyed
How silly of me
to try to fix it... Oh how it feels
Do you feel cold??
I get cold sometimes
Wear shoes because then you get skinny
Oh yess
Blood

Myrtle the tree

Out break of chaos outbreak of chaos
The numbers never really stabilize with windows of not understanding whats going on
There could be a non linear system right here
Butterfly effect what is it?
It can flap in the tropics and antartic
Turbulence of the atmosphere can cause tiny different months of warm air
The earth seems like something like that wouldn't have anything normal
This whole business is a chaotic world
Map this mess nothing come to its normal state
Gaia
The whole ecosystem holds in nature and Gaia and things need to be retaught
Stability of Nature is not equilibrium
Its pretty predictable
Most of ecological theory based on chemical kinetics or something
If something is along the Amazon you can take that and make it a laboratory
Random bunch of deaths can take you through time and sensitivity
Ecosystems can be far from this nature arbitrarily close trajectory
This may diverge in time
Stable in theory subject to kicking
Very Instable
Tough Luck on a massive computer
There is importance in nature
Species are mites crabs and insects
Dynamics follow most rates of known increase in monotonic damping follow the logs
Chaos has one population of a fly which might be chaotic
The paper was overturned and research made it dynamic
Tundra Taiga have chaotic quasimodos
Break down your little spikes on the edge on 1523 northern blvd
The Chaotic Is Intrinsic
Look at Albany they can't see
Inoculous species
This simple experiment will make evidence the species and stability of principles
They breed and forge in the same habitats

My Child Gaia

Love locked
Marr the guls
Can you self maintain
the biotic organism?
Life
Oh that thing that we experience
all together
way tooo much.
Lovelock
Margulis
Gaia
Your daughter
Do you like daisies?

Activation of Chymotrypsinogen

Oh Man
Zymogens
Feel the enzymes
Catalysts
Do your legs come out of your eyes
control it
Or you will end up
like
a
Fruit Fly

Ok... So Selene has left... i think she's on the run because she killed Victor... he totally desrved it though.

xoxo
Bio Girl

Butterflies fly away...

For those of you who read this... my friend is leaving me for three months and is going to Africa. For internet purposes she will remain named Selene (Oh yes... an Underworld reference)

Dear Selene,

Oh how can I fully express my distress at you leaving. I am going to miss you more than anything. Now, I figure I should make you feel bad first and then feel good... yeah I think thats a good thing.

So... first of all, I am stuck in this college with so many people and so many dramatic events and who am I going to text as an outside bank of secrets??? First of all, I text and call you all the time, and yes I mean all the time. When I was walking in a creepy dark alley way, I called you... ofcourse you called me after i got through the alley way but still, I called! Then, I call you when two guys are getting it on in the same room as me - don't you feel special?? Then, whenever any cute boy says anything remotely awesome.. or cool... or just adorable... I ALWAYS text you afterwards with the details... Ok... now, when I am overreacting about something that has happened to me, who do I text or call to calm myself down? YOU!!! And now, three months, or 90 days are going to pass in which I can't use my phone to contact you and there is no way to give you a minute by minute update on my life!!!! How can you do this to me???? (see i'm freakin out a bit....)

Now, I am going to try and calm myself down without your help... its not working. Who am I going to look after at parties and who am I going to go out with to dinner and coffee with??? Who am I going to be able to... excuse the gross factor those of you who aren't Selene... fart in front of without being judged????? Jesus christ... who am I going to discuss religion with and our futures???Aren't our kids supposed to get married to eachother??? What if I figure something out... when can I tell you... in 90 fricken days??? Ok Bio girl... calm down. Who am I going to discuss Underworld with as well as shoes, clothes, guys, traveling, and just life with??

Ok... now is the sappy part. Selene, I am going to miss you tooo much as you can see. I have grown to really rely on your advice, and your presence whenever i need it. I know that we are going to be friends for forever no matter where we are and we will do so many things together... from traveling around France to eating food to just sitting and screaming our lungs out to overplayed songs. Wait... didn't we do that last night?? Anyways... I will miss our partying and "chilling" as well... who can I do that with now??? Oh dear... Well. I think I must end this or I wil just go on for 90 days and you will be back!!

I love you so much and will miss you.

Good Luck in Africa and most importantly, enjoy every minute of your time there!!

XOXO,

Bio Girl

Rev up your Chicken for H1N1

So... major chem test tomorrow and I don't know any chemistry. WTF... I'm screwed.

Anyways... cool facts of the day:

A chicken is made in 21 days
ASCB stands for American Society for Cell Biology
RPI Study group teaches you chemistry
Bud and Ben are gay

Ok.. End of Post.

XOXO

Bio Girl

Chocolate and Vanilla

How can you decide which you like better? I want to be able to enjoy both but it always seems like there must be a yes or no, black or white type decision. I go through life wondering which one is better. Maybe I should look at the history and growth of vanilla and chocolate. Yeah... thats what i'm gonna do.

Chocolate: It is thought that it originated about 4,000 years ago in the Amazon. Then it was used in Mayan culture and the word chocolate comes from the Mayan word xocoatl which means bitter water. It has continued from century to century. Even Hernando Cotez himself used th cocoa bean as a means of currency. There used to be a bitter drink that was made from the cocoa bean - Cortez wasn't a big fan so he suggested adding sugar to the drink... making it into hot chocolate. Soon, Chocolate became a craze in Paris, all over France, Rome and England. Solid eating chocolate was developed by a British facory in 1830. Wow... chocolate is so cool and that is only some basic facts... there is a lot more to chocolate that I haven't even mentioned!!

Vanilla: Vanilla also came from Mexico. It was used as a medicine for different congestinal problems and even venemous bites. It was thought by the Aztecs that making a drink with Vanilla is like drinking a drink if the gods. Cortez himslef also took a liking to vanilla, bringing it back to Spain with him as well. In 1608, Hugh Morgan, an apothecary discovered that the bean could be used as a flavoring on its own. Vanilla ended up moving all over the world, ending up in Madagascar of all places. Did you know that apparently Queen Elisabeth the first had a passion for vanilla? Oh the interesting things you can learn!

So now that I have researched... I still don't know what I like better. Maybe I'll just like both so that I can eat even more and enjoy even more than just being selective... Yeah... that's what I'm gonna do.

My eye... my eye!!

Ok so i'm gonna take a break from the daily poem from bio class and talk about my eye... So I have a stye which is annoying. A stye is a bacterial infection or growth on the eye lid... or around the eye... for me... my inner lower eyelid has inflamed and there is a big growth of bacteria. This is really annoying because not only does it hurt but it is itchy as well. I went the the doctor's office and the doctor told me to use a heat pack (warm washcloth) and keep heating the stye so that it would increase blood flow and the bacteria would die... well after 5 days it has not changed. I have been in more pain and my stye has grown, so I went to the doctor's office again. This time, the doctor prescribed me an ointment as well as some antibiotics. This is a good example of how two different medicines can be combined to work on the same problem. The combination of ointment and antibiotics works on the outside of my body (ointment) as well as the inside (antibiotics). Of course I am taking these medications a few times a day... three times a day for the antibiotics and four times a day for the ointment. What an annoyance (as i've said before :) )

Mitosis and Meiosis

Why do we all go through the daily divide?
spindles
chromatin
furrows
The crease in her forehead
the look of thought
how do the genes keep flowing?
the cancerous lump of cells
keeps her from moving
organelle
DNA
feelings
do the drugs hide your fear?
shorten it and deal with it

Monkey Man

Nowhere do you jump and play
Ever heard of where the dead go
Always needing bones to stay
Nasal changes features fly
Do you feel the sadness
Even seeing the icy approach
Read and learn to make the sound
Tools you throw and wash away
Happy to see you separated
Arise from the depths of modern men
Leave for a better place

The Four Legged Amphibian

Memory

one dash four
four dash one

The sounds of species
Diversity
Changes the seas
Migration is the key
Overflowing to expansive
Lengths

one dash four
four dash one

Name the beautiful
Test taking Struggles
Hybridize the daylight love

one dash four
one dash four

Baby lion
Feeds Orion
Feel the forces flow
Kill the feel
Camels see
Among the average
Avenging fish

four dash one
four dash one

Delete the controlling
Dancing means
Kiss the powerful
Lasting
Fleas

One dash four

Four

Dash

How do you adapt?

Cichlids
Blue Indigo
You separate from each other
Symbol symbiotic sympatric
Radiation
A circle of emergence
Adaptive to the species changes
Find your niche
Thin ways of life
Hawaiian Silver swords
And Anolis Lizards
Feel the beetle and your mammal
Feel the tingle of the radiation
The electric pulse draws you closer
Emerging now is a sympatric line
It cuts you in half
And keeps you to yourself
Though live and compete
To avoid
Extinction

A comment someone said...

My Husbands a Crazy Man

Cussing cautiously
Crustaceans clean
Common cobwebs created
Causing cruel
Controlling changes called chimeras
Classes call clueless cats
Causing cumulative crosses
Create
Comparisons

In oxidation reactions electrons are lost and in reduction reactions electrons are gained

OIL RIG
Ungulating under ubiquitous umbrellas
Urging uber ungulates
Unawares under uglies
Until uglies uphold unique ukuleles
Ulcers understand ulterior ultraviolet unicorns
Uphold until
Urbanite unite

One day we learned about fish... sure its a little silly but I only used words that start with the letter F!!

Pre Cambrian

Fish
Frozen feeding faeries
Feeding faeries for funny faces
Funny faces fake follies finding fops
Fops flirt fluidly
Fluid feels fiery forming flames facing Firenze
Firenze faces floating fish
Fish feeling friendship
Friendship feeding folks
Folks feeding fish
Fish